I donāt like be threatened. And I want him to permanently remember itās unacceptable to go around insulting and threatening strangers. So thatās fine 
Itās not a death curse or anything, just a life disruption.
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Oh it wonāt kill him so no worries there. Just means he might just suffer necrosis or permanent dysfunction in a certain area of his body. We hate to see it 
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On no how very sad 
Maybe heāll stop trying to obsess women with him too when it falls offā¦
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Belial, Spider Offerings, and Jail Sentences
September 30, 2022
- Relevant posts above.
This is really an update on the situation (regarding the person who was imprisoned and the offering). The human in question has been given the minimum sentence and weāre still waiting to here if it can all be served as āhouse arrest.ā Ideally, the situation will be much better in a couple months even if he does have to stay in a real prison for a little while (longer, heās been staying in one since he was initially charged/arrested). In the beginning, we were concerned this would be a 25+ year sentence, but 3 years were given and likely (hopefully) house arrest is obviously much better. The police have enough real evidence to justify 25 years (people have done more for less), but the family has some connections (albeit they canāt game the system entirely) and Belial has his own way of working.
It seems like my trade has begun kicking in. I talked with @anon75849095 whoās aware of my target and it seems something is definitely in the works there. Itās not a death curse, itās just a ādrain their soul awayā type of thing. And Iām being bothered less which is a positive although it seems this person ran into a ward or two of mine which I find hilarious.
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I like them to have some bite. 
Edit: How will people know theyāve acted wrong unless they get bitten after all?
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Unweaving Interpersonal Webs
October 6, 2022
So hereās the deal. I tried really hard to make this beginner friendly. But the reality is even the most beginner friendly of them involves using a personās (2 peopleās) energy bodies. Anything less that that is a cord cutting and I donāt do or write about those. Soā¦ Intermediate friendly! If you can see someoneās astral/energy body then you can do this. Youāre going to manipulate it, but thatās not the tricky part once youāve figured out how to get them in front of you considering you have a background in energy work if youāre going to try this.
Also blanket danger warning if you donāt have the pre-requisite skills and/or fuck up. Not a game.
So Iāll be giving a method on un-binding. Itās not my favorite and not my strongest method, but it works in most non-super-serious situations. If you casually tie yourself to a ālove interest,ā this should get you out. If someone ties you to them in a normal, armature non-permanent soul-fusing way, this should get you out of that. That said, if you bind and tether your soul and being (in)to another person or have that done, this is not the right way to go and youāre probably going to make it worse. (Yes, I have something for that, but this is NOT it.) This is not for human to spirit bindings; only human to human.
Un-bindings happen vastly when people make bad choices. There are cases where people are bound against their willāprobably about halfābut making the wrong choice is usually when people end up needing an un-binding. Sometimes people end up bound to another person unconsciously though (Iāll raise my hand there several times over). Itās very easy to think you want someone until you have them. Hence, un-binding!!
First, take a deep breath and relax. No amount of stress is going to be helpful. Remember, you are undoing something so donāt hold onto things with a tense body and/or mind. Breathe out stress, tension, and anything grounding you in the present moment. When un-binding humans, sit comfortably but not rigidly or in a way that makes you want to sleep.
Energy is the most important thing here. The idea behind an un-binding is to āsplitā a person where their energy is ātaintedā by something āother.ā Sorry for the quotes, but it makes a point I hope. While energy melds together pretty easily, that doesnāt mean that once itās accepted (or forced) into another person it matches their energy. In fact, if bindings did that then they would be pretty useless. Hereās why: if someoneās energy is woven into another person and instantly changes into that personās energy nothing is being bound, itās being transformed into the self. So in an un-binding, you need to find the energy that is āotherāāthat does not belongāand carefully remove it.
Why ācarefullyā? Because if you arenāt careful you are going to fuck up a human in a possibly extreme way that may or may not be fixable. Any toddler can bind two people together, it takes a more steady hand to fix (read: undo) hack jobs and tapestries alike though.
Hereās an interpersonal energy un-binding method:
Image both humans this unbinding pertains to standing, sitting, or kneeling before you. (If you are one of those humans, thatās okay.) Take a moment and let these figures fill in with a few colors, textures, and energy movement patterns. Trust that itās a mostly accurate representation.
DO NOT hunt down this person on the astral and drag their energy body into your ritual space. Completely unnecessary and likely going to cause you problems. Instead, just be an observer of them. You donāt need to be in the astral representation of their bedroom, you just need to see them even if it isnāt in real time. (Yes, thereās a way to un-bind that involves the etheric body; thatās also higher up the food chain on levels of safeness and difficulty and that is not this.)
So, when you have 2 energy body representations in front of you, take another few breaths and calm down. Watch the energy shift in these two āpeople.ā Youāll begin to see which energy belongs to which person and which is āotherā in each of them. Begin with one human first (either the left or the right) and use your dominant hand to herd all the āotherā energy (from the other human, this is interpersonal unbinding) into the arm closest to the other person.
What does that look like? If youāve started with the person on the left who is filled with starry blue energy and shimmering spots of deep purple that swirl without mixing into the blue, then move all those purple spots to the personās left hand which is closest to the other energy body beside them.
Do not block the energy off in that arm, but do gently persuade it to stay in that area. Donāt block it because energy needs to be able to move, but persuade it because otherwise this is never going to end. Hereās where time matters; the next part needs to be done well and in as little time as possible. 4 minutes is too long. 3 is about right. Why? Because the first humanās energy is insanely unbalanced right now and thatās never a positive. So, work quickly and get all the other personās āother-personā energy to their hand closest to the other.
Now, use your hands if you have two, hand if you have one, energy if you have no moving hands to bring out from their hands (closest to each other) and connect the āotherā energy. There should now be an energy bridge between these two people.
What does that look like? The mostly blue human should have purple moving out from their left hand and the mostly purple person should have blue moving out from their right hand.
Hereās something important. Cleanse the energy before it makes its way back into the human it belongs to (blue gets blue; purple gets purple). You can imagine a big white cleansing ball of light surrounding the bridge or you can manually cleanse all of it. (Iām not writing more about that here. Either you know how to, will figure it out, or donāt and wonāt.) The energy is not going to go back into these two hands though. Why? Because those hands are being used as exits and will be resistant to receiving energy.
You can wind the ābridgeā around to the center of their person, their other hand, their neck, whatever you want. Just be gentle about it. Once all the āotherā energy is drained from both, cleansed, and put back where itās from (blue gets blue; purple gets purple), stabilize/balance their energy, make sure theyāre fine and send them on their way. Which means, break off (gently, seriously, be nice) the binding youāve made between them and dismiss them back to where they go.
This isnāt a personās real energy body (at least if you follow this it isnāt and if you use their real energy body thatās on you and Iām not writing about it) so just let it know youāre done and then you can blow on it and itāll dissipate to where itās supposed to be, you can imagine it combining with itās physical body (gently), you can imagine it walking into itās home, whatever you want. Just kindly dismiss it back to itās human. Donāt fuck this part up. That would be (a bit) dangerous for the other human. Itās not a hard part to do, but do it right. Energy work always runs the risk of being destructive when held in the wrong hands.
Like Spiders?
Imagine the energy moving from one person to another is made of little spiders that are walking themselves back to their homes. No need to direct them, theyāll get there. Just watch as they crawl back into their humans and become part of the energy patterns already there. Let them walk themselves over to the personās shoulder, down their arm, passed their wrist and from hand to the body of their energy-owner. Let a big spider guide the person back to their body even.
Just Un-Binding 1 Human or Yourself?
Just unbinding 1 human? Thatās not interpersonal and youāre in the wrong place. That said, a lot of what was written can be tailored to one human, just pull out everything that belongs to someone else and release it; the not-beginner friendly part of this is what youāre going to do with those gaps. Some people might say, āleave it,ā and you can, but thatās not always the best choice, especially if someone doesnāt know youāve just done an un-binding on them.
Just unbinding yourself? There are many, many methods; they are not interpersonal in the way I meant it. But, I have a few words anyways: Feel your energy, unweave everything that belongs to another person. Release it. No need to send it back to anyone, just let it go. Use the methods talked about above where applicable.
Whatās Something Not to Do?
Let me tell you. DO NOT imagine two floating energy bodies as representations of these two humans peeling away from each other.
Why not? Because that is a recipe to end up fucked up. Youāre either going to unintentionally further the binding (because the āpeelingā thing isnāt really going to work out), youāre going to hurt someone (yes, seriously), or if youāre lucky as lucky gets you will do nothing despite the attempt to.
To each their own, but dear god please donāt (attempt to) un-bind without understanding the consequences of your actions. Some methods are beginner friendly and some are not. Make sure you can handle the scary things that might pop out the higher up that rope you climb.
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A Few Words on Un-Bindings and Un-Binding Rites
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I hate posting about them. I feel like thereās a whole lot that can go wrong when someone is trying to clean a mess and not make it and I donāt like having a seat at that table.
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The kind I just posted about, not going to help anyone who had a magician who knows bindings and did a real one. Also not going to get people out of most cursework. Bindings like that arenāt traditionally done as ācurses,ā they arenāt usually done with malice, just desire. Desire to have something a person wants is generallyāI thinkāeasier to undo that a legitimate curse.
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All un-bindings pose a minimum danger level to the person being unbound. This ranges from losing their minds, to feeling (energetically/emotionally/physically) unstable, to permeant damage. The reason for that is that youāre tampering with someone at the core of who they areāthe energy that individually comprises a human. Thereās not much room for forgiveness if you make a misstep.
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Un-binding rites can be like torture sessions. For anyone or everyone involved.
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They fuck with you. A good number of the un-bindings Iāve been privy to have done some weird numbers on people. They feel like not themselves for a while afterward, like something is missing, like they arenāt who they remember being. And this isnāt counting the dreams (nightmares) or the bizarre (haunting) memory flashes following the rite. Some people feel really great, but thereās still those last couple things usually.
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They make me consider how another personās energy can just get lodged into someone and stay there. Thatās not okay (a personal view, although yes I do bindings often enough). What if it was done without permission as most bindings are? (Yes, I absolutely judge my friends and enemies by different standards.)
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Be careful of protective systems. They are not always friendly even if you think you are.
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Warn the other human youāre doing an un-binding on them. Theyāre probably going to feel fucked and deserve to know why if youāre being a nice person and un-binding them.
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This is not a curse removal. It can be part of one, but if youāre un-binding to dissolve or get rid of a curse, youāre wrong. Itās just going to grow back because you havenāt handled the issue.
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Have you ever watched a body scream without sound? Have you ever seen one writhe around in slow motion? Have you ever seen energy trying to escape from a person with no exit? Have you ever pulled all the scary parts of someone out and put them back again, a little lighter and a little clearer though the same? Have you ever seen a reel of the things someone has been through played out in stop motion as you pull energy out of them and filter it into āgoes back,ā āto be cleansed,ā and āfuck noā? Have you seen happy moments thrown into that mess?
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Un-binding is one of the things that has taken me the longest to not be afraid of.
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Once I spent 3 months un-binding myself from someone only to find that it wasnāt enough and I needed my heart ripped out instead. Is that the same as being cursed? Or was I too afraid to finish un-binding myself because I didnāt want to watch that reel play out, feel what it brought, hear the memories I wanted departed whispered and shouted at me for the next 4 weeks?
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People so rarely really want an un-binding when they ask for one. Theyād rather talk about how good it would be, and then decide maybe theyād rather keep it.
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Itās a lot of energy to un-bind someone in the way I like best. Filtering through everything. Not a bad thing, just a thing.
So thatās a large part of why I didnāt post any other types of un-bindings and stuck with that one. They get intense, they get dangerous, they get scary. Itās something I do for close friends and for humans I engage in mutually valued exchanges with but thatās it.
Un-bindings are great, they really are, theyāre just very different from most other things Iām used to and not something I do randomly for fun. Theyāre their own category entirely to me. Not low magick, not obsession, not manipulation, not healing, notā¦ I guess they count as a number of those, but the methods are different as far as mine go.
The last post was a method. I didnāt want to crowd it with this. But I canāt drop an un-binding rite and not accompany it with some melodrama or other context. So here it is 
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Excellent work, Laurel. Lot of food for thought and a non-candle technique to boot!
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@anon75849095 @norse900 Thanks for the kind words!
On candles since they were brought upā¦
I donāt like ācandle techniquesā with this type of working. Iāve learned over the past couple years that Iām a bit more alone in that than Iād like to be. Thereās a lot out there about āCord C-ttingā which I also have a particular view on.
But my stance with the candles is, what are they adding that I need? And the truth isāfor meāunless Iām using candles for the general magick vibes ambiance, theyāre no more than a pretty distraction.
In some types of magick, practitioners (experienced or novice) will substitute a burning candle their own energy & effort. My views on that vary from situation to situation, I think itās entirely valid and a great practice sometimes and other times Iām not sure I would commend it as such. With energy un-binding, however, I fail to see how burning a candle is a better alternative to having a practitioner do the work. Sure, the candle can be useful and yes, if you ācharmā it right then it should do the un-binding, but aside from feeding a candle a spark of energy and an intention, the un-binding has no (clear) human-given direction to follow.
It can work, but itās not the method I prefer because I can burn a candle for anything, but I can only participate so much with the candle (when using a charmed candle for the magick and not as background). Some people have really low level issues, other people have very intense bindings (human, spirit, parasite, emotional connections, etc.) and severing certain things, in my opinion, shouldnāt be left to a candle and an intention.
There are some humans who I believe work candles exceptionally well (@norse900 looking at you), but I think a lot of people misuse candles in their craft. Handing everything over to a candle without considering the actual, legitimate, depths and consequences of their request. So, I support candle un-bindings where they are done well, but I prefer an actual practitioner to be driving the entire thing personally because of my personal experience with bindings. I also think candles leave some residue behind where a practitioner might not. (Of course, depends on how candles are used through and by who.)
Just MY views on candles & un-binding. I donāt like binding with candles at the center of ritual either (in fact I hate it and only do when Iām trading with other humans and they think pictures verify legitimate magick). Maybe Iāll start using them though, in my Obsession Rite (the one Iām getting really close to posting, promise) I might end up using one of those couple candles.
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One of our newer forum folks asked for a bit of insight on working with Jesus. Earlier this year, I did a pathworking. It was originally posted elsewhere online. Itās since been removed from that location, and Iām uploading a few images of those (2) posts here. Since I donāt want my thread clogged with this, itās hidden.
Jesus Pathworking pdf images
The Ritual Post Begins Here:
Jesus Pathworking Google Docs Link
Jesus Path Working - Google Docs
Okay, thatās the best way I could link. Anyone with a link can view.
Sorry the formatting is fucked up, I had to remove posts other humans made between the two I wanted to post and also the site name it was previously posted to from headers and footers.
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Witch & Broom (Tarot Reading)
October 10, 2022
Witch & Broom from āMy Halloween Tarot Spreads.ā This was me reading for me.
Witch & Broom Reading
Where You Began: Queen of Wands
Impassioned, strong willed. The line between light and dark. Stepping into myself, into power. Independence. Confidence.
When I began this path, I was struggling with the darkness around me, the darkness within me. Looking for spots of light and unsure of how to wield what I had been given. Stepping into myself, learning who I was before being corrupted by other peopleās views, wants, and choices. Finding my path, learning to be unrepentant about myself, my passion(s), my magick. Figuring out the role of confidence in magick and mundane. When I began, I was a young girl looking for everything I could not (did not) have and felt I needed. When I began, I walked away from a lot (of darkness) and made choices to walk a different path than the one I was set on by other people. Pele represents both sides of the self, both sides of the volcano. She is strong and she knows it. She does not need others to hand her anything.
Dark Night of the Soul: 2 of Wands
A choice of which path to walk. The gates are there, open, but in each hand a different staff, a different key. Looking to the past and to the future, decisions, planning, connecting dreams with true possibilities.
This is probably about a few āDark Nights.ā So, the first time I left the religion I was indoctrinated into as a baby/child I went back twice. I was 10 & 11. Or maybe 9 & 10 or 9 & 11. I left because I felt like I needed something (and Iām not going to name what because this is a public forum and Iāve learned a real human that exists in my life physically knows Iām here) and that god refused to give it to me. I felt betrayed. So I made a choice to walk away. And then, I went back and knelt down and repented and pleaded for forgiveness. Here I am though, so we all know that didnāt last too long. After those times, Iāve made similar choices between continuing to walk this path and other things, or people at times.
Iām scared one day Iāll choose the other thing. Iām scared one day I might choose the other thing and let it have me, and not come back. Iāve run away before, and Iām terrified I might try to or want to again.
What Keeps You Going: 10 of Cups 
Longing, wishes, looking to the future, the happiness (especially when remembering what once was), the community, the truth that all can be well, optimism. Dantalion.
The 10 of Cupsā¦what isnāt this card? What keeps me here, in magick, is so much. Itās all the beauty that magick brings to my life. All the people it has led me to (love, cherish, value, make real relationships with). Itās Dantalion too, that keeps me here. Lord knows heās dragged me back enough times (and I thank him for it). I look at this card, and no words can tell what it means. This is just one of those full of feelings cards. Defies my ability to use words with strong enough capacity. What keeps me here is all I am, is all the world is, is all my friends (human and spirit) are. Itās the good that keeps me here.
What Freedoms Magick Affords You: The Magician
Magic(k). An opportunity. To command, to be (as I am). Originality, self-confidence, breakthroughs. Resourcefulness. Changing dreams to reality.
(This one is just entertaining.) The Magician is an opportunity to carve and to make my path. Magick affords me the chance to be resourceful in ways that might evade the mundane-only or mundane-mostly folks. It lets me be in charge (or feel in charge at least) of myself, my life, my path, and so much else. It gives me a chance to explore weird things and empowers me to chase my dreams with the grounded hope that theyāll be attainable. This card is straddling the line between an āf youā and āwhat doesnāt magick give you?ā A wonderful card in this placement. I love it.
What Magick Helps You Escape: King of Cups, 8 of Cups
2 cards, they came out together and felt together.
The things I have left behind, the rigidity of the self & external world. It has kept me from (too much) escapism, from walking away from myself, from turning my back on who I am. Kept me from only existing certain ways. Guided me into the King of Cups (energy, archetype, etc.) too.
It took me a little while to fully understand and appreciate these cards (together). The King of Cups is a favorite of mine (in all decks, but wow especially in this one, itās my second fave). The 8 of Cups is about leaving. What does magick help you escape? āKing of Cupsā & āLeaving.ā
What do I run from that magick has helped me leave? And I see these cards and I think āmyself.ā But thatās not right. So instead, I look again and I think about magick helping me walk away from a whole bunch of pretty full upright cups that were just not for me. And I think of magick allowing my escape from that deep, dark, hidden, subconscious, water dragon. Magick has offered me escape from many things, but none more than a person I was not and the person I was trapped under the water. The 8 of Cups is more than leaving, it is also taking a new, guided (by moonlight) path. A dark road, an unknown road, but even full cups bursting with well-meaning, uprightness, and well-being are not always an indicator that we should stay on a path or at a place.
What Magick You Run Away From: 3 of Swords (7 of Wands, The Lovers)
How much do you guys wanna know about me?
This is my favorite card of the deck. Itās beautiful and the story is stunning. The Crane slices away her own feathers for a man that does not know what is happening yet benefits greatly. One day, he realizes though and in anger, feels betrayed.
I was confused, thoroughly, until I re-read the card placementās description ^ (yeah, the one I wrote out). This card means a lot to me (in this deck specifically), one of the reasons itās my favorite. But yes, itās the epitome of what (parts of myself) I turn away from routinely. It haunts me, it makes me anxious. It stares back at me, and it sets my nerves on edge. It destabilizes me, has more than it does, but still the thoughts do too. I wasnāt expecting this card, I wasnāt expecting that it would fit in so flawlessly. No other card in the deck could substitute for this. Once upon a time, I began engaging in thought and action patterns that were not the healthiest. This card is an all too clear reminder.
Watch for Hazards: 8 of Wands
Fast paced, quick movements. Results. Pursuing too much at once.
This one is pretty straight forward I think. Be careful of wanting too much at once, at overreaching, and be cautious of moving too quickly through or into things. Be cautious of what results I am wanting, when. Typical ābe careful what you wish forā and moving too fast.
Where Your Magick is Going: The Moon, Page of Swords (Justice, Judgement)
Watch it. Illusions, trickery. Curiosity, truth, thoughtfulness, energy. (āActions for good or evil are the seeds of the future.ā āA call that leads to new awareness, a transformation that provides release from blocks.ā)
I see 2 things here. The first is what type of magick Iāll be pursuing and the second is more personal. The Page of Swords is the second, the other cards are the first.
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Illusions all around. Tricks sprinkled in. That said, be mindful of my choices and how they will ripple out to affect my future. Be careful that Iām staying true to my own beliefs, values, morals, etc. Shifting judgements, new things on the horizon. Weigh my decisions, but donāt be afraid to make them.
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Playful, spirited, truth-seeking, curious, etc. for āself.ā The āchildishā one of the deck, running around seeking out newness, opportunity, experience, fun, truth. Eyes open, make decisions well thought out, but have fun because if magick isnāt fun (most of the time at least) then Iām doing it wrong.
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I love Tarot of the Divine! But I canāt really read with them; they just wanna be put in spellwork. My deck, a least. They are gorgeous cards.
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These cards are so beautiful, I love the texture on them. I donāt read with them often, but I wanted to this time and they wanted to be read with. I almost chose my dragon deck, but used these instead. I love the style and the storytelling within this deck as well.
Interesting (good interesting) you use them in spell work, I use mostly the Smith Waite deck I have for that. Tradition and all that being the main reason. And thatās the deck I let touch outside energies most often.
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Clairaudience: Eavesdropping at Hellās Gate
So I wanted to post something about my start with clairaudience. A couple of you have had similar experiences I know, and I donāt really like talking about this but someone was over the other day and asked what part of my start into the occult was. I avoided this topic, but figure it canāt hurt to make a brief post about it.
When I was younger, probably 13-17, I had some issues that came up especially at night, but mostly when I was sleepy and it was dark-ish or quiet around.
- Iāve done some research on the topic (not then, but much more recently) and hearing things is not particularly common in that age group. That said, there are some studies that attempt to link (and do trash jobs at it) the onset of menstrual cycles with (auditory) hallucinations. In fact, they even cite ādataā from 50+ years ago when we all know, without a doubt, that no one was biased about topics including women, femininity, and psychosis at all. Personally, though, I am 100% sure that what I was hearing had nothing to do with menstrual cycles. There are also claims about what percent of younger humans (young adolescents) experience (auditory) hallucinations and what percent of them develop or are found to experience psychosis.
Soā¦the āissuesā were hearing things that were often super unsettling, although sometimes just annoying, and on a couple specific occasions downright terrifying. It would usually be late at night, Iād be in bed reading (on my phone usually) or sometimes watching tv (on my school laptop), and Iād start hearing things. Sometimes it was louder than my own voice when I was reading and would be louder than my thoughts, sometimes it would be louder than the headphones. Most of the time, it started out quiet and then got louder, and louder. On occasion, it would quiet down if I told them to shut up.
I remember being really freaked out when theyād respond to me. I might say to be quiet and theyād respond, maybe 2 voices of 15 or 4 of all 4 I was hearing. Sometimes they would laugh and I didnāt know if it was at me or at something going on between themselves. Sometimes they would comment on what I was doing or comment on my story/show. A lot of times it sounded like they were all trapped in a room (an orange one Iād think) talking to one another casually. Theyād talk in a weird language about half the time, one I could neither identify nor understand. Then, there would be the moments theyād speak so I could understand. I tried to make a point to pretend I couldnāt though, I didnāt like when they talked to/at me.
There were two times, though. Two times when it wasnāt anywhere near casual. When I thought the gates of Hell had opened up and I had a first row seat to the show. One time, there was this scream. Blood curdling, made my whole body tense and I buried my face in the pillow trying to make it go away (no, it did not help). There was a spirit that came that night, that made it go away. The other time (and Iām not sure what order these happened in anymore), it was something a bit more involved that I overheard. It was begging, crying, screaming, thrashing around (like someone was boundāin chains maybe evenāand trying to escape). It didnāt last very long, under a minute, but it felt like for that person my 30 odd seconds, maybe 25 and maybe 45, had been somewhere in the span between several minutes and several hours for this disembodied voice.
On another note, there were a couple of nights that I overheard real world conversations between real life humans. These were confirmed by at least one of the humanās in question each time. And were freaky, but more cool that absolutely terrifying. Once, I thought a couple people were on the stairs to the house behind me talking, but then it turned out they were still ādowntownā in the nearest big city at their event. When they arrived, I confirmed with one of them what I had heard giving her a portion of the words and having her fill in the rest. The word-for-word recounting was pretty chilling. That one must have been when I was 15, almost 16.
Clairaudience is something I didnāt know I had until I started actively pursuing it and feeling like I wasnāt competent enough. When I was 16 I asked Dantalion to help me with it, because I knew he would mostly. The way I fell into him was so fucking insane after all, how could I not ask him? I felt lost in the beginning, like I wasnāt sure what I was working toward. But as time went on, I realized clairaudience wasnāt something I had to fight to have, but rather something I had to stop resisting all the time.
When I was younger and hearing things every night, there was a rather abrupt end to the voices (and usually quieter, perhaps less often although it seemed like they were usually on low in the background screams, crying, and begging). I canāt say for sure who it was that helped tamp those down. But I have a couple good guesses. Dantalion, of course, and a dragon Iām familiar with. Iām not sure exactly went on, but I do know Iām very grateful and I also know now how easy it is to slip down into a place where so much more can be (over) heard.
Clairaudience is fun and exciting, but itās also scary sometimes. All things in moderation, and within certain bounds. Iām very happy to have missed out on hearing more of that, but Iām beginning to wonder if it wasnāt a certain hellish layer I was listening into. With that said, I plan to soonāas Iām invitedāgo visit Dantalionās torture chamber with him.
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October 17, 2022
Iām getting close to wanting to do a binding ritual. Like within a couple months is what I mean by that, I have certain things I need to do (mundane world) before I can really do it. Iāll be doing the Dantalion Obsession rite I posted: Obsession with Laurel & Dantalion
So anyways, I want a candle to burn for that ritual. One of the ones with the 2 people (but not one of the ones that comes anointed or anything, I want a pretty one). And I happened uponā¦
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The Penis Candle Funny Gift Sexy Gift Natural Soy Wax - Etsy
Itās perfect, I think, for obsessing a woman with a man. Mostly, it made me laugh.
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Seasons & Tides Changing
October 19, 2022
So I was thinking earlier about the way different seasons manifest themselves into personal lives, my life seeing as itās the only one Iām personally familiar with living.
Scorpio Season is my favorite of them all. Fuck, it can be hard and a mess. And god does it bring up some evil shit from the past, but itās so beautiful too. I change every October/ November. Who I am, my practice, my views, my goals. Scorpio is about achievements and achieving for me. Itās about looking ghosts of the past in the face, denying them oftentimes, and stepping into whatever light their not-shadows had been blocking. Scorpio Season is about looking back and looking forward for me more than any other time of the year. It aligns perfectly, I think, with the season, holiday(s), astrology, etc. Itās the Death card made reality for a while. I love it.
March is another one for me that marks something. February/March (lines up well enough with Pisces) is a fucking mess. There are almost no days when Iām not edge, ready to fight, and wanting to nap 12 hours. I have a weird relationship with Piscesā¦fucking all the people Iām attracted to are Pisces (itās at the point where anyone Iām remotely interested in on tv is a goddamn Pisces, itās inescapable). And yet the sign itself when it comes around drives me up a wall every year. March is entertaining though, between wondering why it makes me stir crazy and reasoning through my fascination with humans of the sign.
May is the third month that Iāve noted brings something routine. Itās about leaving for me. Leaving people, leaving places, leaving practices. Iām not really sure what itās about though. But April/May always has me leaving things. All my breakups (not that many lol but all no less) have been April/May things. Leaving school is a May thing, but Iām not sure that counts since itās a planned schedule.
January is usually tense for me. The tail of December can be lumped in which makes that Capricorn season. But I donāt know that thatās why. When I was younger, depending on the year my parents would trade me for the āholidays.ā About 3 weeks by the time I was 18, but less when it started out. The first time it was a whole three weeks I remember marveling at the fact that that was the absolute longest string of consecutive days Iād spent in the same bed since I wasā¦5? 4 or 5. But spending that many days with the same people after a whole year of constantly shifting is a mindfuck. The āholidaysā also left me trying to āfindā nearly non-existent homework that needed doing. God Bless my 7th grade (age 13) and sophomore (I was 16 for those across the pond) English teachers who gave us a whole ass project to do.
Iām not sure about the other months right now. I figure one day Iāll find a pattern in them too. Even without wandering between houses like a wayward spirit now, it still fucks with me. I wonder if all my patterns are centered around the way my year was structured with them, if itās just the seasons changing, or something else.
Just thoughts after considering October for a bit. October always hits a certain way. I love it all the more for that.
Have a Halloween Death Card. 
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Reading that part only 1 thing related to that sentence came to mind well a bit more then 1 but all related to each otherā¦
Eat the eater you only get eaten if you donāt eat it first.
And the afterthought to that ā¦
Think maybe you need to become bigger stronger energetically in order to be a threat to anything that would dare disrespect you by doing this without your permission?
Then the final thought after reading you wasā¦ Of course since it didnāt do any harm you got lucky 
cuz if it was able to do all you said it could have if it wanted. I think it might be a lesson not to take things for granted like your wards or servitor parasite things thinking theyāre a fool proof defence?
Anyhow glad youāre ok n it did no harm.
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