Today I don’t really want to talk about myself, but about people. Not about one person, but pretty much everyone.
Since I’ve been started on that journey, in 2019, I have done a lot of shadow work, and so a lot of self-reflection. At the start it was mostly to heal myself because of my depression, but after a while it became way more important. I wanted to know (and still do) why was I reacting like this or that, why was I saying those things… Pretty much dissect my whole brain, to discover myself, and what makes me tick. I have to admit, it became excessive, but not in a bad way.
And so, because I started learning about myself, I started learning about others too, almost in an unconscious way. Because I was able to see myself in a clearer light, I was now able to see other people. Thanks to this, I was actually able to find what I want to do with my life, and I will most likely start my Bachelor in Psychology next year. I found myself fascinated in how the brain works.
With what I’m about to say, you might not agree with me, and that’s okay. I would actually like if you could explain your view on that. Also, because english isn’t my native language, I might word things in a weird way.
In my recent discovery, I found that most people, if not all, are actually selfish. Self-centred. Now, those words have a negative connotation, but they aren’t negative in themselves.
A few definitions :
- “Concerned excessively or exclusively with oneself, seeking or concentrating on one’s own advantage, pleasure, or well-being without regard for others”
- “Showing or prompted by self-interest”
- “Selfish is defined as being focused only on yourself, or acting that way.”
In our interractions with other people, it’s always to get something out of it. We have desires, from nice and innocent ones, to negative and harmful ones. And for everything, there is both sides of the spectrum. It could be curiosity, and in that case we want, we feel the need to satisfy it. It can be innocent, from just wanting to talk to someone, but it could also be really a curiosity about something that could be negative for others, or even dangerous. In both cases, there is the need to satify that curiosity, that desire.
For some of us, in those interractions, it is to feel important, accepted, validated… you name it. Again, both sides of the spectrum. You could feel important by helping people, feeling useful, or you could do it by crushing others, bullying them, so you feel above them. The end goal, it is to feel important. In both cases, you are going to use someone for your own desire.
Even when it comes to having friends, there are things we want from a relationship. It could be to feel accompanied, or it could be for moral/emotionnal support, or mutual interests. The list goes on. But again, in the end, there is something we want from that relationship, or we wouldn’t be interested in it. It is the same for love relationships too.
In our society, being selfish is seen as a bad thing, and if we are, we should feel bad about it, we should feel ashamed. But as we saw, it is not correct. We have learned that everyone is selfish, to an extent of course, but we all do things with a goal in mind. Even if we aren’t aware of it.
In the end, thanks to all the shadow work I’ve done, I was able to understand others more. It helped a lot, to ask myself “What do they want ?”, so when this question was answered, I wouldn’t expect too much from them, or just have totally wrong expectations.
If I hadn’t been selfish, I wouldn’t have learned that.
To finish this post, I wanted to add this that I found, when I was doing researches. It explains a bit more, and in a better way, about what I’ve been writing here.