So, final red flag on dude raised, message received, action to be taken. But I shall do it with a clear head… And not just because I’m sending things; I firmly believe that just a relationship coming to a close isn’t enough to warrant any sort of magickal reprisal. I do, however, believe that dismissiveness, lying and disrespect are enough to say “see you never! Please let the door hit you en route out”.
Just because I know I’ve picked apart meant a person and fucked good things up MANY a time, I was willing to let a few things slide. So long as I could logically explain or see how my actions may have affected the situation thus giving me a skewed perspective. But no matter who you’re dealing with, whether it’s an official thing, a BF/GF (or whatever else) kinda thing it was, a FWB… Whatthefuckever. You should always have a line in the sand and decide how you think you deserve to be treated. Not one motherfucker on this planet has the right to make you less than either by their words or their actions. Sure, there’s times when spur of the moment, or without thinking, a person can say things they don’t mean. And that’s normal. It’s when that’s a pattern, that’s a problem. Now, my problem is I will intentionally scour a person over so much, I convince myself that someone that actually does care and isn’t doing this shit does this this shit. And I pick them apart til I find a flaw just because I looked and looked and looked until I convinced myself I found one.
I think that’s what I initially thought I was doing here. Picking this good guy to pieces when what he really could use was some support. But the red flags began to come thick and fast. And, as Maya Angelou once wrote “when someone tells you who they are; listen.” I let the first one slide, because it could easily have been misunderstanding. I let the next one slide, and put it down to a stressed out person saying something they didn’t realise how is sounded when drunk. The next one had an equally plausible separate possibility, so I didn’t think much of it. But then came my line in the sand. I won’t stand for disrespect and then CLICK all the other red flags fell into place and I’m just like “yeah, nah”. Can’t trust you, don’t want to hear any explanation, fuck you and the horse you rode in on you bearded C U Next Tuesday.
I’d be inclined to let the shit slide if not for a few small factors I’ve found as I’ve ruminated on the situation. There were a few things that I think require retaliation on my behalf. He disrespected Belial in my house. That’s a hard no. We’ve butted heads more than once, but Belial will have my back if I ask him. Not on all things as I can’t expect that, but I know you guys know what I mean. There were also some instances of disrespect that now I see them for they are should not have happened in my own home. That too, to me, warrants a little bit of a fuck you being delivered his way. I have a couple ideas, but we will see what happens
