On to part two of my day. Well, technically, it’s parts one and three but anyway, that’s neither here nor there…
I probably should’ve thought more of it, but was sidetracked at the time. Before I dropped kiddo off at school, I noticed that the 2 of wands was on the floor near my altar. It was from a deck I no longer use for divination due to missing cards and only use it for talismans etc. Didn’t think too much of it as I was in a rush. Just assumed I’d knocked it over while trying to get the boy out the door. Did think it was odd it was a single card, but… Things to do and such.
I recently bought a new deck, but I haven’t really gotten to play with it too much. The standard cups, wands, pentacles/coins and swords with their corresponding elements. This is where it gets really quite interesting… I’d put the deck away, in a box and could’ve sworn I closed it. But I found the deck, a chunk of the cards out of the deck and the cards still in the box with the knight of fire upright on top of the pile in the box.
This second part confused me. I couldn’t logically explain why that card was out. The knight of fire represents the same values as the knight of wands basically. The Knight is motivation/drives you to find motivation. He brings out your truth from the depth of your being. To join with your passions, desires and that fire inside wanting to be expressed.
Thinking about that and then remembering the two of wands earlier; planning, making decisions and taking that first step. Which linked in with the knight… But I had a feeling I should look up which spirit’s card the two of wands is. And lo and behold; it’s Bael. The newest spirit I’ve added to my little secret club lol.
I call it a pantheon, but it’s really three main spirits (Belial, Abaddon and Lilith) with a few others on the sidelines (like Furcalor, Orobas and until recently, Bael). The sideline crew get offerings regularly, but not to the same level as the main three. I focus mostly on the main three, but the others are worthy of my respect for reasons I shall keep to myself. This roster also changes slightly from time to time, but the main three never change. Now, no pacts have been made and they won’t be for a little while yet (I don’t think I’m skilled enough to not get the shit end of the stick with a pact just yet) but I give those main three their dues for helping me. Belial gets a little extra here and there, but this doesn’t seem to cause any jealousy.
But today after finding the two of wands and the knight of fire in places they had no business being, I did some thinking. I mean, I’m trying to be more aware of signs and omens so that I fuck shit up just slightly less. I came to the conclusion that Bael was sending me a little message. That the plan that I have made in my head is the right one and to push forward. But that he thinks that I’m lacking guidance he will be able to assist with if given more focus from me. If I can be motivated and push myself, he will help bring out what I am currently lacking and bring some balance.
Hey, I might be wrong. This could all be a ridiculous coincidence that I’m reading too far into because I’m tired after battling a vicious headache. I could have things backwards and should run the fuck away and just give up magick altogether before I REALLY cock something up lol. Who knows? The only vision that is 20/20 is hindsight and I won’t have that until after I make my mistakes.
So off to chat to Bael to see what he has to say.
Tomorrow is clean up day for my altar space, so I’ll also buy new candles for each of the main four spirits and dedicate them. But holy heck are black candles getting hard to find. I also plan on spending some time with Abaddon during the day.
