Rituals, Musings, and Misc

[norse900]

My last post dealing with the…difficult…land spirits trying to withhold help was taken down by myself the next day.

I spent this past long weekend tearing out and planting new flowers and flowering bushes, replacing everything that didn’t flower with something that does. I also potted several dozen starters or full grown plants I want to eventually keep in my ritual space. I did forget to run a few things by the Fae Queen in the area, but she was overjoyed at the work that was done (and more that will be).

And that Queen that was refusing to help find that little girl’s body came to my space at the request of my local Queen. She apologized in her own way and I got out some offerings. It was an uneasy truce those first few moments, but she agreed to help and agreed to abide by my rules, meaning she and hers are welcome when general offerings to those I work with are given (that indirect spirits are allowed to partake in, not all).

Thought I should post an update. I see news about it and she’s been on my mind, even if her spirit is safe (when) here.

[norse900]

I have a niece a week older than my 12.year old. Her liver tests said she should be at 24. She was at 42, just tested at 32, but it jumps back.

Kind thoughts and works, if able. I feel she will pull through, but how well is always up for grabs.

[norse900]

Should be ahead of it. Certainly accept help.

Santa Muerte leading (Catholic family)

Edit- yes - things done.

Pain and blood aside, looking okay. Pretty good. I didn’t need to get down and dirty.

Going to bed.

Leonard Cohen - You Want It Darker (Lyric)

[norse900]

So, this ritual caused some issues with some of my family. They don’t know about this site or anything like that. I sent it to a family message chat. I didn’t show the scalpel work here, but did there.

And a close family member went off, railing against magic and everything in between. I had to remind them that I don’t need “approval” for what I believe in and do in pursuit of that. I don’t push it on anyone, having grown up in a family where every time you interacted with a non-Mormon, you usually let them know you were one (like they fucking care).

I reminded this person that every single person in that chat group believed a different thing, that that never stopped us from loving each other, and that all of those points of view were valid. Others in the group said similar things and it was dropped.

You’d think that me, Norse900, with years worth of work out there, hiding in plain sight, had a family that I could be open with, but that isn’t the case. And, like I said in that message, that is okay.

Why? Because I have a space where I can practice in peace. I have a wonderfully supportive community here that helps me and other grow on our individual paths. I have a spouse supportive enough to not question when another box of incense comes in the mail…

There are people that rail against others disagreeing with the points of view. I’m battling one right now (hehe, going well) that purports to be a Pagan - but has no clue he’s dealing with an actual magician he can’t bully his way into silence. But he’s a special edge-case.

Despite this recent conflict, which we avoided when there was a visit a bit ago, I’m not going to broadcast this or that. I don’t need to convince anyone of anything. I don’t need to validate that I believe in what I do.

And I’m genuinely grateful.

I’m also grateful that the rest of you are here with me. Despite any disagreements, differences in opinion and practice. That’s what TOM is supposed to be about. I got a notification that we need to renew all of the different domains and certificates we have in place to keep this place running within the next few months.

Close to a year. Glad to have you here.

[norse900]

I just attempted to read Grant’s Hecate’s Fountain and I think it’s a complete waste of time. Well, if you haven’t wholesale swallowed the Thelema, Kabbalah/Klippoth, numerology, pseudo-Egyptian belief system he has. This reminds me of the “punch” at backyard parties where everybody brings something to pour into it and then act like it’s a masterpiece. Except the stuff getting poured is every conceivable belief system regardless of how tenuous the association is - then building on that to gain further insights and forgetting the base wasn’t solid to begin with.

I was reminding myself that its basis is the Thelema religion and, being allergic to a lot of “revealed” religions, I think understanding it would require more of a suspension of rational thought than I’m willing to give overall, not just to this text. This feels like cherry picked association porn built on cherry picked association porn. Maybe I just need to find the audiobook version and drop some hallucinogens to get it. I don’t know.

But I am positive that it all made sense to him.

If you’re interested, the link was out up in Myth’s link collect (from the Internet Archive). Typhonian section.

[Mythopoeia]

I so wanted this to be brilliant, and have been so disapointed

[norse900]

I know, so did I. I stopped at page 50. Really glad I didn’t pay for it.

I think one would have to deep delve into that religion to really get what he’s saying, but I’m not going to drop everything and spend a few hundred or more to do it.

I swear, that early ritual scene, there were drugs involved.

[anon75849095]

Dude 22 years ago a copy of hecates fountain could sell ina second hand occult book store for 6 or 700 dollars.

I read it or tried to.

Even if you have a solid background of gematria and kaballah and Qlippoth you still aren’t going to necessarily arrive at the same conclusions he does.

The idea of taking elements you like from different psycho spiritual currents end lining them up into a cogent whole is absurd.

It’s like talking about chakras and sephiroth placements on the energy body for energizing rites like middle pillar. Dude yes they are both energy spheres at key points on the human body is some seem to correlate some do not. We can’t try to force merge two separate distinct systems into one whole. That’s a trap that philosophers and retard mystics have been trying to do for centuries. It’s like comparative religion is an awesome subject in college but this is like that but going too far.

Our job as mystics and magicians ( God’s wise men and women) is to understand the knowledge, absorb the wisdom of the current or tradition, know how it corresponds with other systems similarly composed and then keep it moving.

It’s like these dudes became convinced that “their” truth which is true enough for them on… ok… Is actually THE truth. They come to a point where they want to publish their systems of practice and present these to students as if they are factual objective legitimate creations that enshrine THE TRUTH instead of presenting their practice to others as a reflection of THEIR truth.

As an author myself ( of a humble little book ) I feel I have the right to do a little criticism of this. Not him himself but this kind of reasoning. See when I wrote I hoped that readers would find things they resonate with, try techniques they liked, then monkey with it till it worked for them, and finally taking what was mine and incorporating it into their practice they truly made it theirs.

My style of magic isn’t gonna appeal to everyone I know that. So I’m not gonna present it as the truth or infer it’s superior to others forms ( well it’s superior for me anyway) I’m just going to try to distill my learning and make it useable to others. That kind of book is cool in my mind.

If anyone cared what was or wasn’t cool in my mind

[norse900]

You said it better than I could’ve, for sure.

I’ve thought about it for a while and I don’t get the appeal of mish-mashing things to that level at all. I’m reminded of it even more as I started rereading the Simon Necronomicon again and they’re stuffing everything into neat boxes.

I think some of it’s just ego-vomit. Maybe deserved, maybe not.

[anon75849095]

You’re probably right about the ego issue. I actually think it’s like a set of thinking errors we are prone to make as human magicians and mystics. When we begin our study and search for real Truth we notice meta patterns emerge from different currents and religions. That’s cool at a certain vantage point or point of reference or perspective. Get too close and they you stop seeing the big picture of what actually matters better.

It was you @norse900 that taught me the right way to read an occult book. Try to have an open mind… Try anyway. And read the book cover to cover unless it goes in the bin. Work the system through as it is presented to you. Once you achieve fluency you’ll be able to modify or make adjustments without danger because you understand the nuts and bolts of what’s going on.

See I didn’t really know how to read a book before you taught that. I’d fixate on whatever I was drawn to, discard what looked like it sucked and then confidently or dismissively say I’d read the book. It is worth it to give an author a shot. You bought the book atleast read it and try and see what is adaptable in your practice and what isn’t.

That’s valuable thing!

[norse900]

Thanks and 80% is my usual goal for a book. There’s an “energy” book by a guy, Frater something, I have read through and won’t work through because I can’t meet the 80% mark

[norse900]

Stuck in traffic leaving The Cure concert.

@Laurel_Spider this was from their song lullaby. If you haven’t heard it, you may consider it.

[Mythopoeia]

Lullaby is my favourite song of theirs!!! Along with A Forest.

[norse900]

They did both. Still trying to get on the highway

[Laurel_Spider]

Sooo I just listened to/watched it, think this just made my ritual playlist. Absolutely loved it!

[norse900]

Yeah, I’ve been listening to that song since the 80’s (89) and still love it.

[norse900]

They played a lot from Disintegration, Forest, a few others I’d heard but couldn’t place, and shit hit the fan when they did Friday, I’m in Love. Ended with Boys Don’t Cry.

[norse900]

Ah, The Cure. After some sleep, I wanted to type up some of the highlights. I meant to bring a smoky quartz with me to gather up some of the energy, but forgot. Maybe it was for the best.

I’ve already mentioned the majority of the playset. I did forget to mention that they also played Burn from The Crow soundtrack, another I really like. Was hoping for Last Dance,
but it wasn’t to be.

One thing about the Cure and the songs of theirs I like is that they trigger my synesthesia. Normally, I get tingles, an eargasm in the literal sense, with head tingling and a spacey feeling. It can run through my scalp too, almost like waves at times. The tingling is combined with a sinking feeling, like I’m being devoured by it as I still process and enjoy the music.

Last night, they were running through the majority of my upper torso, too! Fucking amazing, especially given that there were SO many people there. So, I did what any good magician does and called out to those I work with to see who wanted to experience it with me. While I normally get a lot of interest in this, I’m reasonably confident that Hecate, who came first, was letting me enjoy the moment without a parade of spirits. She, Hel, and Amduscias enjoyed the rare offering.

I don’t remember what the first song was, actually. You’d think I would, never having seen them in concert before. And here was the voice I’ve listened to for 30 years, understandable, recognizable. Disintegration was one of the few cds I took with me to Iraq, back when no one had a cellphone and MP3s had to be burnt onto cds and usually required a special player.

The second song was Pictures of You and this was like a gut punch. It was understandably important to me during that time and at that time (and growing up), pictures had to be printed to enjoy and you never knew if the photo was any good until you paid to have it printed.

So, Pictures of You had maybe a more physical meaning with our history and memories tied to limited storage, processing film, and fingers crossed you got some good ones.
When it came on, man, I was trying just to not cry in front of tens of thousands of people I didn’t even fucking know. I wasn’t expecting that reaction. I still listen to that song and have hundreds of times since Iraq. I was caught in between enjoying that moment in the fullest and not wanting to eye leak in public when it wasn’t even dark yet Actually, I’m listening to that album right now and it just came on. Eyes a little misty. Got my money’s worth with that one, for sure.

It was pretty cool, seeing 4 generations of goths, oddballs, and misfits all gathered around. All for a band that started playing in bars the year before I was born, just in this one place alone. Pretty amazing impact.

[norse900]

Can I get a fuckin’ Hell Yeah!?

So stoked! Got my enchanted bracelets from @anon75849095 today. So awesome!

Thank you. It’s been a really rough week. I can use them, for sure.

Again, thank you.

[anon75849095]

Welcome Bro! That was fast too, that shipping co was on point. Wear them in good health my friend.