Yep, sounds like shadow work here. Its never easy, facing the wrost of ourselves, but to grow stronger and more “in tune” with ourselves we all need to face it eventually. I know Ive been “putting it on the back burner” for a while myself and will have to tackle it sooner or later. Other things just keep getting in the way. Lol
There was a few great threads on here about shadow work if you need help on it. (Im no expert so take what you can from the others that are) I’ll link them here if you havent seen them.
Hope these help. Keep going. I know it may seem hard now but once you gain more control of your inner self things will get easier.
See! Just take things slowly and rest when you can. 