METATRON heals my trauma
Many years ago in what feels like a lifetime ago I was a part of fundamentalist Christianity. I don’t know if talking about this will be controversial but if I’m going to speak on my latest magical act I should give a cursory explanation. I won’t go into to many details and besides it doesn’t matter anymore. Metatron’s kindness has nullified my rage.
Backstory
I am LGBT. Before I came to terms with that I bought into American fundamentalism hook line and sinker in a desperate effort to find some meaning in what at the time of my teenage years was a lonely and generally meaningless time in my life. Some happiness resulted but I left due to multiple deciding factors and realized I was Transgender not to long after. The memories of what I used to believe and associating myself with others who lived in that mindset, It seeped deep into my subconscious. Ultimately I didn’t realize I was traumatized until several years later when certain people began to intrude into my mind years later.
Curse Happy
I initially got into Magick due to a mind blowing success I had with using the Law of Attraction but then I discovered Black Magick through E.A Koetting’s Became a Living God “movement” and I began to think “how far can I take this?” I had plenty of dark thoughts but probably out of the darkest was that I wanted to kill my former best friend. I over the course of a few years obsessively tried to petition spirit after spirit to make him suffer. He represents everything I now hate. But when I decided to bug Raziel she made me realize that I didn’t want him dead.
I just wanted to forget.
She told me to contact another angel that can help me and the urge to call Metatron was given.
The meeting with Metatron
I met with Metatron. When it comes to using the Pathworking’s that I use my mind plays it often as a coherent whole, or as much it can.
For instance Tempest’s Pathworking for Metatron is(It’s free on his website. Don’t kill me DMCA god’s!)
A white marble statue of an emperor.
The head suddenly falls off.
The marble head shatters on the ground.
A golden orb of light emerges.
He often manifest’s in my mind from the golden orb. He’ll take on a full angelic form or he’ll become the wizard of oz…or now that I think of it when he does this he looks like Zordon from Power Ranger’s.
He was full angel this time. Nevertheless I felt my need and I told him…He hugged me and touched my back and said “You are healed.”
I believe after some research he touched my Sacral Chakra which google tells me,
“The sacral chakra is believed to be the second chakra in the human body. It’s thought to govern how you experience sexuality, creative expression, emotions, and more . According to most traditions, it can become blocked and unbalanced, as can the other chakras in the body.”
Fitting.
Afterthoughts
I now see the very real need for balance in one’s life as a magician. If one keeps their mind focused on Black Magick in their path they can become a very angry and bitter person, always looking for a fight. I don’t know the effects of neglecting Black magick. That’s out of my experience.