This was a conversation with Yog-Sothoth. He had some interesting things to say in it and it continues to shape the path they now have me on, too.
Me: “I apologize (stumbling to find a working pen). I wasn’t prepared for this.”
YS: “Nor did you have reason to be. We yanked you from one grimoire to begin working on another. I would encourage you to take notes.”
YS: “For we can call everyone. But we don’t. We have called on many. Some for power. Some for glory (their position). Some for ability. And some simply to further our influence amongst the general unconscious (collective) of Man. Any way you define ‘Man’. It doesn’t apply to us.”
(I thought of ‘just’ being a tool, a servant to be stepped on)
YS: “Not quite. You are not ‘Us’ and there are more than enough mindless tools in your world. We prefer people with power.”
(‘Power’ is an overloaded term here, as is ‘prefer’)
YS: “You’re starting to see. You were contacted recently by one whose place (location or the structure spiritually) you cannot determine, but whose power left those in ritual listening intently…”
Me: “I was. I don’t fully understand. Different from you.”
YS: “Yes, different. But similar.”
(I went to take a sip of wine and felt he’d like to taste it through me. Normally, this isn’t a problem, but as I went to agree to it, I was stopped by some spirits I work with. It wasn’t to never do it, but to wait. “If one is not attuned to the energy (of this magnitude), it can lead to sever unbalancing, meaning spiritual or emotional psychosis could be nearer”)
YS: “Yes, that is wise (for you)” - he knew of the danger and was indifferent to it.
I have some notes after this about how YS, Cthulhu, and Shub-Niggurath came way too fast, too easily when called, which I figured meant that they had plans they’d like me to take part in.
I was/am not a huge fan of Lovecraft, but have read his “Complete Collection” Some stories I liked, some were boring. But it was easy to feel an undercurrent.
At this point, I was considering working through the Necronomicon tarot deck like I had with the (original) Lessons of the Deck thread. (Note - this is essentially what I’m doing with the Black Book of Azathoth right now).
Parts of the entries for the following days are likely of value, but I don’t have the time right now to go through and filter them only for the useful stuff. Some of the stuff I will leave out are about my specific style of practicing or about things going on mundanely that wouldn’t matter. I’ll get to it at some point.