This was a conversation with Yog-Sothoth. He had some interesting things to say in it and it continues to shape the path they now have me on, too.
10MAY22
Me: âI apologize (stumbling to find a working pen). I wasnât prepared for this.â
YS: âNor did you have reason to be. We yanked you from one grimoire to begin working on another. I would encourage you to take notes.â
YS: âFor we can call everyone. But we donât. We have called on many. Some for power. Some for glory (their position). Some for ability. And some simply to further our influence amongst the general unconscious (collective) of Man. Any way you define âManâ. It doesnât apply to us.â
(I thought of âjustâ being a tool, a servant to be stepped on)
YS: âNot quite. You are not âUsâ and there are more than enough mindless tools in your world. We prefer people with power.â
(âPowerâ is an overloaded term here, as is âpreferâ)
YS: âYouâre starting to see. You were contacted recently by one whose place (location or the structure spiritually) you cannot determine, but whose power left those in ritual listening intentlyâŚâ
Me: âI was. I donât fully understand. Different from you.â
YS: âYes, different. But similar.â
(I went to take a sip of wine and felt heâd like to taste it through me. Normally, this isnât a problem, but as I went to agree to it, I was stopped by some spirits I work with. It wasnât to never do it, but to wait. âIf one is not attuned to the energy (of this magnitude), it can lead to sever unbalancing, meaning spiritual or emotional psychosis could be nearerâ)
YS: âYes, that is wise (for you)â - he knew of the danger and was indifferent to it.
I have some notes after this about how YS, Cthulhu, and Shub-Niggurath came way too fast, too easily when called, which I figured meant that they had plans theyâd like me to take part in.
I was/am not a huge fan of Lovecraft, but have read his âComplete Collectionâ Some stories I liked, some were boring. But it was easy to feel an undercurrent.
At this point, I was considering working through the Necronomicon tarot deck like I had with the (original) Lessons of the Deck thread. (Note - this is essentially what Iâm doing with the Black Book of Azathoth right now).
Parts of the entries for the following days are likely of value, but I donât have the time right now to go through and filter them only for the useful stuff. Some of the stuff I will leave out are about my specific style of practicing or about things going on mundanely that wouldnât matter. Iâll get to it at some point.