This was a conversation with Yog-Sothoth. He had some interesting things to say in it and it continues to shape the path they now have me on, too.
10MAY22
Me: āI apologize (stumbling to find a working pen). I wasnāt prepared for this.ā
YS: āNor did you have reason to be. We yanked you from one grimoire to begin working on another. I would encourage you to take notes.ā
YS: āFor we can call everyone. But we donāt. We have called on many. Some for power. Some for glory (their position). Some for ability. And some simply to further our influence amongst the general unconscious (collective) of Man. Any way you define āManā. It doesnāt apply to us.ā
(I thought of ājustā being a tool, a servant to be stepped on)
YS: āNot quite. You are not āUsā and there are more than enough mindless tools in your world. We prefer people with power.ā
(āPowerā is an overloaded term here, as is āpreferā)
YS: āYouāre starting to see. You were contacted recently by one whose place (location or the structure spiritually) you cannot determine, but whose power left those in ritual listening intentlyā¦ā
Me: āI was. I donāt fully understand. Different from you.ā
YS: āYes, different. But similar.ā
(I went to take a sip of wine and felt heād like to taste it through me. Normally, this isnāt a problem, but as I went to agree to it, I was stopped by some spirits I work with. It wasnāt to never do it, but to wait. āIf one is not attuned to the energy (of this magnitude), it can lead to sever unbalancing, meaning spiritual or emotional psychosis could be nearerā)
YS: āYes, that is wise (for you)ā - he knew of the danger and was indifferent to it.
I have some notes after this about how YS, Cthulhu, and Shub-Niggurath came way too fast, too easily when called, which I figured meant that they had plans theyād like me to take part in.
I was/am not a huge fan of Lovecraft, but have read his āComplete Collectionā Some stories I liked, some were boring. But it was easy to feel an undercurrent.
At this point, I was considering working through the Necronomicon tarot deck like I had with the (original) Lessons of the Deck thread. (Note - this is essentially what Iām doing with the Black Book of Azathoth right now).
Parts of the entries for the following days are likely of value, but I donāt have the time right now to go through and filter them only for the useful stuff. Some of the stuff I will leave out are about my specific style of practicing or about things going on mundanely that wouldnāt matter. Iāll get to it at some point.