Yog-Sothoth called me to ritual. He gave me a head’s up yesterday.
YS: “Yes, I did (call me into ritual). I also told you to grab this book (my notes grimoire) and a seat. Are you ready?”
Me: “You would know.”
(He was both irritated and amused by this response. There was also a bit of ‘wonder’ in the analytical sense and ALL of this was packaged together and present. As an analyst, I get that, but the speed and transmission of all of it in a split second was interesting and impressive).
YS: “You have called the Haunter (side note to be observed, but not given much weight - and Nyarlathotep). Why?”
Me: “To expand my interactions with and knowledge of the entities in this current?”
YS: “A worthless, generic answer. I was expecting (it). No, you know why”
Me: “Integrating their energies (the energies they represent) into me.”
YS: “Have you?”
Me: “Not really. I commune when I’m told to, but outside of that, no.” (more on this later)
YS: “You have failed in that area, haven’t you.” (it wasn’t phrased as a question)
Me: “I have reached out and taken direction. What would you like me to do?”
YS: “I believe I just said it.”
He left.
It’s easy to think he was displeased, but he wasn’t. I HAVE reached out and communed when told to. As noted in above entries, I refrained when they said I should.
So, when they call you out for doing what you should have, it’s a check. YS knew it, knew I knew it, but wanted the conversation transmitted here - which is a credit to him, actually. He KNOWS others will read it and wants the experience known. If anyone things this doesn’t happen EVERYWHERE ELSE in the spiritual world, well, the coddling ends. If they weren’t powerful, impressive, dual-natured entities, we would only get HALF the experience - at best.
So, YS said I should integrate these energies. It’s easy to think that incorporating SIMILAR energies is good enough. IT ISN’T. I’ve integrated Tiamat, Leviathan, and the entire Shadownomicon series. The problem is this - integrating “shadow”-esque or chaotic energies is NEVER a one-time thing. It isn’t. It never will be. One specific layer of chaos is not the WHOLE. Unless you have some bullshit product to sell that I never will. It it also noteworthy that I’ve said similar things with Dead/Death energies and entities in the past. One is NEVER the WHOLE. If nothing else, because one is not attuned enough to grasp the nuances that encompass the current. Or the nuances between similar current veins.
But people will sell that to you. I have a heavy, multi-year, publicly vented threads of it and still advocate for numerous rounds. With variety. I still need work.
So, what YS is saying here isn’t really for me. I met the “ego test” and he wanted me to pass this along publicly (hence the writing down of it).
Now, since ALL shadow aspects are different (don’t fool yourself), he wanted it public. Once that’s done, the leverage gained in between is gone, right?
Not quite.
People want to reduce Yog-Sothoth to a gate or the key to the gate, but forget he’s probably the most intelligent entity in this pantheon. People want to credit Nylarlathotep as a sort of Lucifer, but that’s because they see BOTH in the same religious imagery as some sort or Pagan Christ (yes this can be argued, but LONG introspection should come first).
I value, but don’t need Nyarlathotep like I would need a Christ for this pantheon. BUT I do see he can be valuable. Unfortunately, I haven’t put the “work” in to see his full value yet. He’s an interface to the Gods/Goddesses of this pantheon. If they contact you directly, it changes the game a bit. So, I don’t have a good fixture on him yet.
Nyalrathotep is a messenger. And if you know where the destination is (or it came to you), this relationship will not be as strong as those that need something similar.
Someone skilled in evocation and energy work can see the…edges…of Yog-Sothoth (ot the others) and be tempted to force and conjure as that would happen. The rest of the onion will know. You can force that part, but you need…greater skills for the rest. And, frankly, with my own, I can see there are still some more.
That doesn’t meant that that matters, though, and that peach of insight may trigger all sorts of…rewards and issues. Your discretion. Your risk.
So, we’re left with the choices of weighing action and inaction, of the nuances of both. And that sort of waving, good-bad, benefit-gain is exactly what they’re looking for.
This current is a balance of gain and loss, of enlightenment and false paths. Let’s not pretend it’s anything else.
It will be there.
