August 23, 2022
Up at 4 am. I’m fighting a cold or allergies something like that, but think I’m on the mend.
I did get a ritual done that I had been needing to do with my crystal skulls. I still need to figure out what the emerald skull is for, but I figure it will let itself be known.
I still need to work on typing up my Color Therapy work, but I think that will have to be a project for weekends. It’s hard to focus on writing important stuff and chase after twins. Even though they are really good babies.
Set, the Egyptian god is back around me. Not sure how I’m feeling about it to be honest. In some ways he is good for me. He pushes me past my comfort zones to try to do new things. To just do it. But on the other hand the way things were left hanging the last time he was around, I’m just not sure if I want to deal with it.
I still have an ongoing pact with Bune, it’s my first really working with her. She’s cool. Hopefully, things will all come together.
My last run in with a group of magicians was rough. I didn’t realize how hard of a toll I took until yesterday. Cried most of the day. But it’s ok. Im not sure what they were trying to achieve. Wearing a black cloak doesn’t mean I cant see you. I think they were mostly on a power trip. Maybe wanting to prove they were badasses or something.
It’s always worse when it’s groups. I’m not sure why. Maybe strength in numbers. One being a jerk is fine. But multiples can be brutal. It’s funny when you see magicians you know, and then you see how they really are. I think people be surprised to discover which magicians are abusive to spirits and which aren’t .
Like I get being a little demanding letting your wants or needs be known. A little forceful. But doing stuff just to be mean and sadistic is not cool.
I’ve seen magicians just work with spirits as one time thing, which is cool. But I’ve been some magicians temples stayed for a while.
I think it’s different when the magician forms a bond with the spirit. The last magician that I was very close to, I think I spent more time in his temple than my own home. You have that special item that draws you in and you know it. Like it’s a second home. At first it feels empty. Like being put inside an empty box or bottle but then you change it and it feels like a home.
It feels safe and comfortable and you like it.
Then when for whatever reason that magician has an issue with some other magician , and that magician tries to separate the spirit from their magician. Maybe it’s so they won’t protect them. I know I was very protective. And even tried to protect him while I was severely sick. But I just couldn’t and somehow ended up in a box. I know the other magician said that he didn’t want to hurt me, he just needed me to stay out of it. But it’s very traumatic when a spirit gets separated from their magician and pulled away/out of their temple/item. Even if you aren’t hurt intentionally you still get hurt.
But, I think if the spirit is aware enough of things they can give a warning that something isn’t right. But the magician has to pay attention to them and what they are saying.
Like if I said hey I see someone is in your temple or your space or I see a spirit you don’t work with. It could be a heads up that something is amiss.
But it is very beautiful when the magician and the spirit fit just right. There’s a lot to be learned and gained from it. Finding the right groove of things can be tricky though. The magician has things they want/need and so does the spirit. And they both have feeling and emotions and have to deal with shit.
It’s just when it works it works and it’s great.
Bindings don’t really bother me as long as it’s done with good intent. But I’ve seen some nasty ones that I didn’t like. So I would find a way to leave.
I guess what I’m saying is the right spirit and the right magician make a great team. There is a lot they can do together and things they can accomplish. It’s can also be a great relationship whether it’s love like love love, or friendship, or just being on the same team.
Anyways, I’ve rambled long enough.