Just to show you how craptacular the camera is on this awful phone, a pic of the working I just finished. Have to write an entry right away so I don’t forget shit. And sorry to the person who got my rambling message just now, but I had to say it right TF away lol
Small offering for Abaddon today as he wasn’t the spirit I was going to be focusing on; Belial was meant to be… Let me give you some back story.
I’m in a group chat type thing and one particular young lady has showed interest in demonaltry. So I’ve been trying to help in the ways I would’ve liked to be helped (because if I’d known the shit I do now when I started, I’d not have pissed spirits off) but trying to stay hands off too so she can learn. However, she seems intent on following some really bad teaching and doing some silly shit. I’m no expert or anything, I’d barely consider myself better than a beginner, but I am still cranky about how I was spoken to. She’s made her bed, and she’s going to have to lay in it to learn. I think she’s gone and given blood to a spirit that isnt the one she thought it was… So I may or may not have sent some “help” to speed up her learning process. Is it my ego? Possibly. Will this be better for her in the long run? Possibly.
I’m hoping my little intervention will get her back on the right track. Not my right track because the LHP is often a path we have to walk alone, but hers. She is a good person, but has bad guidance and is far too cocky. She’ll end up getting hurt and while I can’t prevent that, I think I have a responsibility to at least say “hey, you’re gonna get hurt”
Belial seemed to want to jump on this, probably because she’s fascinated with him and he is a great teacher. It was strange that Lilith decided to pop in, but I wasn’t going to say no. I mean, who says no to Lilith? Lol.
I blooded Belial’s sigil and a black candle, lit a black candle for Lilith and incense for both. Abaddon was given his two red candles and a glass of cold water and he stayed as an observer. Belial and Lilith have agreed to assist in return for payment including some pink roses for Lilith and stuff I won’t share for Belial. She will not be hurt, but a lesson (and a damn harsh one) will be taught.
I finished the ritual, advised Lilith she could leave and went into meditation with Belial. That’s when things went… Well, they went up a notch or several. He likes to throw his weight around sometimes I’m finding and likes to show the magician that he’s powerful. And it’s often sexual in nature. At least, it seems to be with us.
I could feel this sensation like I was falling forwards, like face first, into nothingness. Like, just falling into a blue/black hole. Then I could feel hands on my face, gently at first like being brushed by someone’s fingertips and them sorta holding them there. Then, it felt like my whole head was being held and the falling sensation stopped. It was like I was being made to look at something, but I couldn’t see what it was. Then a feeling I could only describe as like an audio visual convulsion happened; flashes of light/images and darkness. All so fast I couldn’t make them out. The whole time, I was getting radio silence from Belial. Not a word. I know he was there because it was almost certainly his hands holding my face though and because he’d spoken earlier. And then a feeling I can only describe as like a “high”; a strange, uplifted, buzzy kind of feeling. I need to burn the sigil with the fire from the black candle and use the one I made the other day. Thought I lost it and found it as I finished up.
So yes, that’s my long winded, rambling story about today lol.